Post by Sam Kidsgrove on Apr 4, 2021 8:21:51 GMT -5
My Sympathies
B: S. Kidsgrove
Written by: S.Kidsgrove
LIFTINGTON
As you can see, this facility is state of the art, we’ve seen politicians, actors, celebrities, sportspeople and businessmen through these doors. Our programs are second to none and we have a great rehabilitation rate across all metrics.
KIDSGROVE
Yeah great, great. I have to say Doc, with what I’ve seen, I wish I came here when I had to get some help to be honest but, you know what? I’m impressed.
LIFTINGTON
I should think so. We’ve been one of the top organisations in the country, we do the best we can. I need to be absolutely clear here. Mr Levingson is very happy with the facilities, for some reason he asked for you to visit though. So this is highly unusual for us., I trust that you will be discrete.
KIDSGROVE
Nowithstanding the 5 disclaimers that I signed I would never be anything other than discrete. I’ve been in this situation, I know how it needs to be handled Doc. I’ve done like a thousand make a wish now, don’t worry about that.
LIFTINGTON
You wouldn’t believe how many people have come through here and suddenly a guest comes to see them and they’re on TMZ, you understand my reticence?
KIDSGROVE
I do, and it’s appreciated from everyone who has attended these places. I would have hated if other people leaked the rehab process. It’s why I released it to the press in the first place.
LIFTINGTON
Not everyone is like you though, not everyone likes you either. You will do well to remember that.
LIFTINGTON
But here we are, Mr Kidsgrove, through that door is the patient who you have come to see, who’s insisted that you of all people come here today and speak with him. According to him it’ll help with his rehab. I agree, but what do I know? I’ve only been a Doctor for 30 years.
KIDSGROVE
Yeah thanks Doc, we’ll…
LIFTINGTON
Just you Mr Kidsgrove, the patient was very specific about this.
KIDSGROVE
Hi Derek, I’m Sam.
DEREK
I know who you are, I called for you.
KIDSGROVE
Oh..K.
DEREK
You seem puzzled. Isn’t this what you do? Charitable meet and greets, make a wish, philanthropy, you know that kinda thing?
KIDSGROVE
Yeah but people are usually a bit….
DEREK
Happier to see you? Yeah I’d imagine. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy to see you, I called you here after all and, well, this is the best facility out there so they’ll do anything if one of their clients request it, I assume you’re being appropriately remunerated?
KIDSGROVE
Well, I do this for free, but if you’re happy to see me why are you looking at me like you want to run through me?
DEREK
Straight to the point eh? OK, I can do that. Do you know Lacy Haig at all?
KIDSGROVE
No, should I?
DEREK
Of course you don’t because you don’t care about people who’s lives you ruin. You don’t care about people who’s families you break or destruction to reign down upon people.
KIDSGROVE
What are you talking about man? How can I ruin someone’s life when I don’t know them. Look if this trip is a waste of time and you just wanted to talk nonsense you could have spoken to anyone.
DEREK
Every week you’ve been on TV, telling the world that if they only look up to you and your stupid light, being a beacon of hope and all they can follow their own path. Every week you’ve been trying to inspire the down and outs, trying to motivate people to be better.
KIDSGROVE
Right?
DEREK
Well, let me tell you why I’m in here. You see, I never used to be an alcoholic, I never used to take drugs. I was the president and founder of a billion dollar company. Lacy Haig was my wife. We had a beautiful relationship with 3 brilliant kids. We were married for 20 years. But because of your “beacon” shit she decided she didn’t want me any more. Apparently I was “too miserable” and “worked too hard” for her to waste her life, so the great Sam Kidsgrove convinced her she’s better off ending a 20 year marriage. The great Sam Kidsgrove convinced her she’s better than me. The great Sam Kidsgrove caused the depression I spiralled into, the great Sam Kidsgrove caused the alcoholism, the drugs, the suicide attempts. The great Sam Kidsgrove ruined my fucking life. So I called him here so I could let him witness what he did. I called him here so he can look me in the fucking eye as I tell him that he ruined my life and that everything that happens to me is on him.
KIDSGROVE
What? How is any of that my fault?
DEREK
You don’t get to decide what is your fault! You don’t get to speak! You caused this, we were happy before you came up with this shit! Happy, for 20 years!
KIDSGROVE
Did it ever occur to you, Derek that your wife was already unhappy for 20 years? I just try to inspire people who need help man. If she was listening and acted, she already had one foot in the door.
DEREK
We were happy! If it wasn’t for you!
KIDSGROVE
Oh please, have you heard yourself right now? Absolute bullshit man. People like you are just the worst kind of emotional toddlers. You never own up to your mistakes, you seek to blame everyone and anyone else for your issues and don’t try to help yourself. Let me guess, this rehab isn’t entirely voluntary? You tried to end it at work and they put you up in this place, right? Well fuck man, I have sympathies for your situation but you need to realise that this is all on you. People like you are a cancer on rational thought in this society. Hell you have a physical embodiment of what I’m talking about challenging for my Golden Globe this weekend. You ever heard of Kancer in AW? You and your ex wife obviously watched it.
DEREK
Yeah
KIDSGROVE
Well Kancer is just like you, he’s had his issues. He’s had problems with drugs, he’s had a problem with alcohol and suicide and shit like that, hell I have and I have sympathy with all you guys who are going through this kinda shit, I really do. But blaming others for your own decisions? Blaming others for what goes wrong in your life? Fuck that.
You two are just the same - for you it’s my fault your wife left you, for him it’s bad booking leading to an injury otherwise he’d be up there in the main event right now slapping around Ash Blake like she’s nothing. Not your bad decisions, not the fact that you basically screwed up, didn’t put in the work and now realise that you’re older and less likely to get what you actually want because your body fails you. You failed in your marriage, just like Kancer failed in his first stint at AW.
Let me put a scenario down for you, tell me if this feels familiar. You go in thinking things would be easy, you go in with all of the optimism and good will, things start pretty well.
Then you get complacent.
You start thinking this is easier than you actually thought.
You get your ass handed to you because it isn’t that easy.
You spiral because you lose your grip, and eventually you’re there, in the recovery room being told it’s over and a year later you wanna come back and make everything right again.
Sounds familiar right? That’s the journey Kancer is on right now. It’s the journey you are on right now. He’s just a few months ahead of you is all, but I can guarantee unless he stops blaming others, he’ll be right back with your sorry ass in a few months and you can circle jerk about how I caused both of your sorry asses to rehab together because I will sponsor his ass to come here so he can creep you out.
And I’m sorry if this sounds harsh to you or if I’m having a hard time sympathising with your plight, but quite honestly you need to hear this. I am not pandering to the whims of people who don’t want to be helped, I am putting up a beacon of inspiration for those who do and if you thought that bringing me here to guilt trip me for something only you caused and only you can solve, well sorry man you have the wrong guy.
DEREK
You know what, I’m just gonna kill myself, yeah, that’s it. I’m gonna get a knife and I’m just gonna do it.
KIDSGROVE
No you won’t. This is where you and Kancer are different. I can see it in your eyes you don’t mean it, I recognise an empty threat easily. I know when someone is lying to themselves Derek. It won’t happen. You know why I know?
You have a little bit of hope left in you. You know this isn’t always going to be like this and you’re gonna find a new life when you get out of here, you will be fine. You’re not like Kancer who tried to cop out but failed, you’re not defined by the pain and suffering you inflict on yourself, you don’t embrace it as a victim. It’s not you yet, you can walk through that door in a couple of weeks, follow your own path and become you again. You don’t have to go through the same road Kancer went down. You don’t have to become dependent on the pain, if it doesn't have to define you.
What I said earlier is what you needed to hear, it’s the path you are going to follow if you keep up this bitterness and toxic thought process. It’s a cancer in your mind that will eat away at you unless you stop it dead.
Kancer didn’t - he let it fester. Kancer let it take over him, define him, become him. He’s shown that he’s so weak willed and weak hearted that he let depression take over his whole life. Yeah sure he went through the motions of rehab, he went through the process but he’s always in that zone where he’s got one foot in the door of going back there. I feel sympathy for him in some respects, I really do. But at some point you gotta grow up and overcome that. Stop blaming others and just get on with it, otherwise you’re gonna go missing for a year, come back and act like nothing is different and the world still owes you something.
KIDSGROVE
So tell me Derek, when it’s all said and done, when your rehab is over and this vice grip that this toxic mind cancer has on you is loosened what kind of man are you gonna be? Are you going to embrace the darkness, start wearing big black leather trench coats and hate the world or are you going to look into the light and become the man your wife loved again? It’s your choice. You can see the paths, it’s just down to you to walk one of them.
DEREK
It’s too hard! I can’t do this without her!
KIDSGROVE
Everything worth doing is hard man, that’s the beauty of it. You put enough hard work in and when it all comes together there’s no better feeling. Yeah you sometimes put hard work in and fail and that’s frustrating, but you go again. The worst thing to do is just not try. Especially when you get to a good point in your life. Do you think what I have with Zooey is just the easiest thing in the world? Do you think for a second that now we’re comfortable together in a loving, stable relationship we both just coast along now? No, now is when we try, hell we even work harder to keep it loving and stable because if you let it coast and stop trying? Well you’re gonna lose it.
Just like Der Metzger.
He put in the effort to go get the US title, he put in the work, the hard yards and did the difficult thing by winning it. But now? Well he’s coasting along with it, not defending it, not putting the hard work in there to protect the legacy of the title. He’s not doing anything with it other than using it as a little prop that goes on his freaky mantlepiece somewhere.
And you know what’s gonna happen? By the time he gets around to defending it, by the time he realises it’s important to him and that he has a legacy with it, it’ll mean nothing. The legacy will be tarnished because the Golden Globe will be THE championship in Action Wrestling. He’ll be relegated to curtain twitching and dark matches, booted off the card because his title will be considered a nothing. And that will be on him.
Bet your bottom dollar that he’ll also blame me for it. This time though, it would be true as I’ll be there in his spot, holding my Golden Globe and defending it each and every single time I’m called upon to do it.
So yeah, it’s gonna be hard, you’ll have your downs but you know what? It’ll be worth it in the long run. Trust me.
DEREK
Thank you thank you thank you.
DESCHANEL
You really told him he was gonna turn out like Kancer if he carries on wallowing in self pity?
KIDSGROVE
Yeah.
DESCHANEL
And basically shouted at him for wasting your time?
KIDSGROVE
Pretty much
DESCHANEL
And that worked?
KIDSGROVE
Well there’s a bit more to it than that, but yeah, kind of.
DESCHANEL
Kind of?
KIDSGROVE
I just offered him an alternate path and told him things he really needed to hear. You gotta do this sometimes.
DESCHANEL
Tough love. Is that what this whole Kancer thing is about?
KIDSGROVE
What do you mean?
DESCHANEL
I mean you pretty much held up him as a shining example of all things wrong with people who have addiction and depression, you were pretty much a jerk.
KIDSGROVE
I thought you said you couldn’t hear it.
DESCHANEL
See, I tell you exactly what you want to hear as well. But I’m not a jerk about it.
KIDSGROVE
Thanks, I guess! But no, Kancer isn’t about that. I’ve said before, I have sympathy for the guy, I really do. We’ve both been on similar paths, I went through rehab, hated the world for years, I came to wrestling, I got a long injury, I got fuckin’ diabetes that put me out for like a year. I almost lost you, we almost lost Emily, hell we did lose her for a while, and I was put in hospital by both Dandy and Harrison.
The difference between me and Kancer, the reason why I did not go off on the deep end and let my addiction, depression and anger become who I am, the reason why I turned away from a life of bitterness and blaming others for my woes is you.
Sounds cliche, sounds hopelessly romantic even but you did all of this. I love you.
B: S. Kidsgrove
Written by: S.Kidsgrove
FADE IN
INT - SIERRA TUCSON REHAB CENTRE - DAY
SAM KIDSGROVE, A Lister to the stars with compassion for days is visiting the Sierra Tucson rehabilitation centre in Tucson AZ. He’s being guided by DR. JIM LIFTINGTON, head psychiatrist of the facility and extremely intelligent, with the will to show it. ZOOEY DESCHANEL, sweet as sugar and as cute as a flower A Lister is behind them, talking to another physician. They are touring the building and on their way to see a patient.
LIFTINGTON
As you can see, this facility is state of the art, we’ve seen politicians, actors, celebrities, sportspeople and businessmen through these doors. Our programs are second to none and we have a great rehabilitation rate across all metrics.
KIDSGROVE
Yeah great, great. I have to say Doc, with what I’ve seen, I wish I came here when I had to get some help to be honest but, you know what? I’m impressed.
LIFTINGTON
I should think so. We’ve been one of the top organisations in the country, we do the best we can. I need to be absolutely clear here. Mr Levingson is very happy with the facilities, for some reason he asked for you to visit though. So this is highly unusual for us., I trust that you will be discrete.
KIDSGROVE
Nowithstanding the 5 disclaimers that I signed I would never be anything other than discrete. I’ve been in this situation, I know how it needs to be handled Doc. I’ve done like a thousand make a wish now, don’t worry about that.
LIFTINGTON
You wouldn’t believe how many people have come through here and suddenly a guest comes to see them and they’re on TMZ, you understand my reticence?
KIDSGROVE
I do, and it’s appreciated from everyone who has attended these places. I would have hated if other people leaked the rehab process. It’s why I released it to the press in the first place.
LIFTINGTON
Not everyone is like you though, not everyone likes you either. You will do well to remember that.
Kidsgrove is a little put out by this, but chooses not to respond.
LIFTINGTON
But here we are, Mr Kidsgrove, through that door is the patient who you have come to see, who’s insisted that you of all people come here today and speak with him. According to him it’ll help with his rehab. I agree, but what do I know? I’ve only been a Doctor for 30 years.
KIDSGROVE
Yeah thanks Doc, we’ll…
Kidsgrove and Zooey start walking in but the Doctor stops Zooey from going further.
LIFTINGTON
Just you Mr Kidsgrove, the patient was very specific about this.
Zooey shrugs, looking at Kidsgrove to say “what can you do?” He masks a show of irritation and puts on a smiling facade, then walks into the room.
INT - PATIENT ROOM - SIERRA TUCSON
In the plush surroundings that only an exclusive rehab facility can boast sat a nerdy looking man, he’s as nervous as they come but he looks very angry when he sees Kidsgrove walk through the door as if he’s the happiest guy in the world. Kidsgrove puts his hand out to shake, but the guy looks at him with hatred.
KIDSGROVE
Hi Derek, I’m Sam.
DEREK
I know who you are, I called for you.
KIDSGROVE
Oh..K.
Kidsgrove is bemused by the hostile reception. Meet and greets don’t go like this, they shouldn’t go like this.
DEREK
You seem puzzled. Isn’t this what you do? Charitable meet and greets, make a wish, philanthropy, you know that kinda thing?
KIDSGROVE
Yeah but people are usually a bit….
DEREK
Happier to see you? Yeah I’d imagine. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy to see you, I called you here after all and, well, this is the best facility out there so they’ll do anything if one of their clients request it, I assume you’re being appropriately remunerated?
KIDSGROVE
Well, I do this for free, but if you’re happy to see me why are you looking at me like you want to run through me?
DEREK
Straight to the point eh? OK, I can do that. Do you know Lacy Haig at all?
KIDSGROVE
No, should I?
DEREK
Of course you don’t because you don’t care about people who’s lives you ruin. You don’t care about people who’s families you break or destruction to reign down upon people.
KIDSGROVE
What are you talking about man? How can I ruin someone’s life when I don’t know them. Look if this trip is a waste of time and you just wanted to talk nonsense you could have spoken to anyone.
DEREK
Every week you’ve been on TV, telling the world that if they only look up to you and your stupid light, being a beacon of hope and all they can follow their own path. Every week you’ve been trying to inspire the down and outs, trying to motivate people to be better.
KIDSGROVE
Right?
DEREK
Well, let me tell you why I’m in here. You see, I never used to be an alcoholic, I never used to take drugs. I was the president and founder of a billion dollar company. Lacy Haig was my wife. We had a beautiful relationship with 3 brilliant kids. We were married for 20 years. But because of your “beacon” shit she decided she didn’t want me any more. Apparently I was “too miserable” and “worked too hard” for her to waste her life, so the great Sam Kidsgrove convinced her she’s better off ending a 20 year marriage. The great Sam Kidsgrove convinced her she’s better than me. The great Sam Kidsgrove caused the depression I spiralled into, the great Sam Kidsgrove caused the alcoholism, the drugs, the suicide attempts. The great Sam Kidsgrove ruined my fucking life. So I called him here so I could let him witness what he did. I called him here so he can look me in the fucking eye as I tell him that he ruined my life and that everything that happens to me is on him.
Kidsgrove rolls his eyes at this suggestion, he is not here for this shit.
KIDSGROVE
What? How is any of that my fault?
DEREK
You don’t get to decide what is your fault! You don’t get to speak! You caused this, we were happy before you came up with this shit! Happy, for 20 years!
KIDSGROVE
Did it ever occur to you, Derek that your wife was already unhappy for 20 years? I just try to inspire people who need help man. If she was listening and acted, she already had one foot in the door.
DEREK
We were happy! If it wasn’t for you!
Kidsgrove stops biting his tongue, he’s completely had it with these accusations.
KIDSGROVE
Oh please, have you heard yourself right now? Absolute bullshit man. People like you are just the worst kind of emotional toddlers. You never own up to your mistakes, you seek to blame everyone and anyone else for your issues and don’t try to help yourself. Let me guess, this rehab isn’t entirely voluntary? You tried to end it at work and they put you up in this place, right? Well fuck man, I have sympathies for your situation but you need to realise that this is all on you. People like you are a cancer on rational thought in this society. Hell you have a physical embodiment of what I’m talking about challenging for my Golden Globe this weekend. You ever heard of Kancer in AW? You and your ex wife obviously watched it.
DEREK
Yeah
KIDSGROVE
Well Kancer is just like you, he’s had his issues. He’s had problems with drugs, he’s had a problem with alcohol and suicide and shit like that, hell I have and I have sympathy with all you guys who are going through this kinda shit, I really do. But blaming others for your own decisions? Blaming others for what goes wrong in your life? Fuck that.
You two are just the same - for you it’s my fault your wife left you, for him it’s bad booking leading to an injury otherwise he’d be up there in the main event right now slapping around Ash Blake like she’s nothing. Not your bad decisions, not the fact that you basically screwed up, didn’t put in the work and now realise that you’re older and less likely to get what you actually want because your body fails you. You failed in your marriage, just like Kancer failed in his first stint at AW.
Let me put a scenario down for you, tell me if this feels familiar. You go in thinking things would be easy, you go in with all of the optimism and good will, things start pretty well.
Then you get complacent.
You start thinking this is easier than you actually thought.
You get your ass handed to you because it isn’t that easy.
You spiral because you lose your grip, and eventually you’re there, in the recovery room being told it’s over and a year later you wanna come back and make everything right again.
Sounds familiar right? That’s the journey Kancer is on right now. It’s the journey you are on right now. He’s just a few months ahead of you is all, but I can guarantee unless he stops blaming others, he’ll be right back with your sorry ass in a few months and you can circle jerk about how I caused both of your sorry asses to rehab together because I will sponsor his ass to come here so he can creep you out.
And I’m sorry if this sounds harsh to you or if I’m having a hard time sympathising with your plight, but quite honestly you need to hear this. I am not pandering to the whims of people who don’t want to be helped, I am putting up a beacon of inspiration for those who do and if you thought that bringing me here to guilt trip me for something only you caused and only you can solve, well sorry man you have the wrong guy.
Derek is losing control at this point, he was not expecting the tables to be turned in this way, his grip on his reality and sanity is at breaking point. He fidgets and starts to hit his head with the base of his hand.
DEREK
You know what, I’m just gonna kill myself, yeah, that’s it. I’m gonna get a knife and I’m just gonna do it.
Kidsgrove studies Derek for a while, not saying anything as Derek breaks down in front of him.
KIDSGROVE
No you won’t. This is where you and Kancer are different. I can see it in your eyes you don’t mean it, I recognise an empty threat easily. I know when someone is lying to themselves Derek. It won’t happen. You know why I know?
You have a little bit of hope left in you. You know this isn’t always going to be like this and you’re gonna find a new life when you get out of here, you will be fine. You’re not like Kancer who tried to cop out but failed, you’re not defined by the pain and suffering you inflict on yourself, you don’t embrace it as a victim. It’s not you yet, you can walk through that door in a couple of weeks, follow your own path and become you again. You don’t have to go through the same road Kancer went down. You don’t have to become dependent on the pain, if it doesn't have to define you.
What I said earlier is what you needed to hear, it’s the path you are going to follow if you keep up this bitterness and toxic thought process. It’s a cancer in your mind that will eat away at you unless you stop it dead.
Kancer didn’t - he let it fester. Kancer let it take over him, define him, become him. He’s shown that he’s so weak willed and weak hearted that he let depression take over his whole life. Yeah sure he went through the motions of rehab, he went through the process but he’s always in that zone where he’s got one foot in the door of going back there. I feel sympathy for him in some respects, I really do. But at some point you gotta grow up and overcome that. Stop blaming others and just get on with it, otherwise you’re gonna go missing for a year, come back and act like nothing is different and the world still owes you something.
Derek is crying uncontrollably at this point, his sobs punctuated by wails of pain as emotions wash over him.
KIDSGROVE
So tell me Derek, when it’s all said and done, when your rehab is over and this vice grip that this toxic mind cancer has on you is loosened what kind of man are you gonna be? Are you going to embrace the darkness, start wearing big black leather trench coats and hate the world or are you going to look into the light and become the man your wife loved again? It’s your choice. You can see the paths, it’s just down to you to walk one of them.
Derek is still sobbing but now in a seated position, rather than curled up in a ball.
DEREK
It’s too hard! I can’t do this without her!
KIDSGROVE
Everything worth doing is hard man, that’s the beauty of it. You put enough hard work in and when it all comes together there’s no better feeling. Yeah you sometimes put hard work in and fail and that’s frustrating, but you go again. The worst thing to do is just not try. Especially when you get to a good point in your life. Do you think what I have with Zooey is just the easiest thing in the world? Do you think for a second that now we’re comfortable together in a loving, stable relationship we both just coast along now? No, now is when we try, hell we even work harder to keep it loving and stable because if you let it coast and stop trying? Well you’re gonna lose it.
Just like Der Metzger.
He put in the effort to go get the US title, he put in the work, the hard yards and did the difficult thing by winning it. But now? Well he’s coasting along with it, not defending it, not putting the hard work in there to protect the legacy of the title. He’s not doing anything with it other than using it as a little prop that goes on his freaky mantlepiece somewhere.
And you know what’s gonna happen? By the time he gets around to defending it, by the time he realises it’s important to him and that he has a legacy with it, it’ll mean nothing. The legacy will be tarnished because the Golden Globe will be THE championship in Action Wrestling. He’ll be relegated to curtain twitching and dark matches, booted off the card because his title will be considered a nothing. And that will be on him.
Bet your bottom dollar that he’ll also blame me for it. This time though, it would be true as I’ll be there in his spot, holding my Golden Globe and defending it each and every single time I’m called upon to do it.
So yeah, it’s gonna be hard, you’ll have your downs but you know what? It’ll be worth it in the long run. Trust me.
Kidsgrove holds out a hand, offering help to get Derek off the floor. He has compassion in his eyes and conviction in his heart. Derek hesitates and nods before taking Kidsgrove’s help. Once to his feet, Derek hugs Kidsgrove.
DEREK
Thank you thank you thank you.
FADE TO
KIDSGROVE’S MANSION - LA - NIGHT
Zooey is walking through the lounge to come sit next to Sam, ready to watch Falcon and the Winter Soldier. She slides in next to him and they snuggle on the sofa.
DESCHANEL
You really told him he was gonna turn out like Kancer if he carries on wallowing in self pity?
KIDSGROVE
Yeah.
DESCHANEL
And basically shouted at him for wasting your time?
KIDSGROVE
Pretty much
DESCHANEL
And that worked?
KIDSGROVE
Well there’s a bit more to it than that, but yeah, kind of.
DESCHANEL
Kind of?
KIDSGROVE
I just offered him an alternate path and told him things he really needed to hear. You gotta do this sometimes.
DESCHANEL
Tough love. Is that what this whole Kancer thing is about?
KIDSGROVE
What do you mean?
DESCHANEL
I mean you pretty much held up him as a shining example of all things wrong with people who have addiction and depression, you were pretty much a jerk.
KIDSGROVE
I thought you said you couldn’t hear it.
DESCHANEL
See, I tell you exactly what you want to hear as well. But I’m not a jerk about it.
KIDSGROVE
Thanks, I guess! But no, Kancer isn’t about that. I’ve said before, I have sympathy for the guy, I really do. We’ve both been on similar paths, I went through rehab, hated the world for years, I came to wrestling, I got a long injury, I got fuckin’ diabetes that put me out for like a year. I almost lost you, we almost lost Emily, hell we did lose her for a while, and I was put in hospital by both Dandy and Harrison.
The difference between me and Kancer, the reason why I did not go off on the deep end and let my addiction, depression and anger become who I am, the reason why I turned away from a life of bitterness and blaming others for my woes is you.
Sounds cliche, sounds hopelessly romantic even but you did all of this. I love you.
FADE OUT
END