Post by Claire Hawkins on Mar 14, 2021 18:06:53 GMT -5
"That's it......"
"I concede...."
"I'm tired.........."
"I'm tired of constantly being rundown and perpetually being told that nothing I do will amount to anything. It is like an unending repetition of being told that I'll never amount to anything simply because I didn't win the world title during the first four months of my time in Action Wrestling. I'm tired of being told that my efforts in making the Television Championship mean absolutely nothing that I worth less than a pile of shit. I'm fuckin' tired I people completely disavowing my existence."
"I'm tired of playing the same fuckin' game as everyone else and being told that I'm worthless."
"Cause that is exactly what you, and people like you, do. You'll sit there and flaunt everything that you have managed to do and compare it to somebody like me. Telling me to "build my brand" while at the same time making it impossible to do so. Making it painfully clear that nobody has any desire nor interest in witnessing me succeed in a business that I have trained my ass off in order to even entertain the thought of being a part of."
"Herdy-derp, just grow a thicker skin!"
"Guess what, fool. You can't grow a thicker skin when the skin is kept being peeled off; wounds do not heal when kept open."
"So yeah; this match was never intended to be my big breakout moment nor was it something that was ever perceived to be within my grasp. No matter how badly I wanted it to be, this just isn't an opportunity to prove myself. Clearly, it was never designed in such a way that there was ever a moment in which I might win. Never was there a moment where the notion that I might one day be able to reach the peak of this company ever existed; not as I was"
"Then again, this is why I began this path."
"Spencer, you may consider me to be nothing more than a curtain jerker and that any tangible success is something that I shall never attain. You're entitled to your opinion just like anyone else. However, that will not change my choices nor the accolades that I have managed to cobble together in this unstable career. Even should you smack me back down to irrelevancy, that will not discourage me from once more crawling my way back from the depths of disregard and blatant dismissal. I will continue to keep my head down and carry on with the intensively exhausting climb to where I dream to be."
"Physically......"
"Verbally......"
"Professionally........."
"that is something that you shall never be able to take from me; my determination."
"So yeah; you might never consider this to be a matchup that could ever be considered as a moneymaker matchup, but that is also exactly why it IS. Face it, Spence, the notion of the disenfranchised wretch challenging the proven franchise is a "Davis versus Goliath" scenario if there ever was one. Even should I not be able to pull out the upset victory of the century, the reality is that this is a rare opportunity to deliver such lopsided conflict and allow the fans to bear witness to the desperate clash that might one day be looked at as a turning point in our careers."
"Mine more than yours."
"Do you understand, Spencer? The beauty of the contradictory nature of humanity is the struggles in which we face. Yes, it is odd and wholly devoid of sense as to why this match is happening. Yes, for all intents and purposes it appears to be management feeding you a perceived easy victory as you continue upon your way to Timebomb. In fact, it is quite an easy mindset to fall into and I cannot fault anyone for thinking such."
"Even so, that will not change my spirit stands unwavering and determined. I shall walk - MARCH - into the Tide arena the same as I leave; head held high. For, at the end of the day, I shall emerge victorious whether or not I win the Hardcore Championship. After all, being able to say that the disenfranchised wretch brought more fight than the Franchise expected is an achievement in itself. One that I can proudly place alongside being a former Television Champion and the one that acted as the savior of the division as a whole"
"Believe it or not."
"Accept it or not."
"I SHALL be going into our match with the same desire for victory I had when I dethroned Hazel Overton to become Television Champion. I SHALL be just as determined to defeat you as I was when I thwarted Wesley's at ending my reign at Evolution two. I SHALL be facing you with the same confidence of victory that I did against Carter Shaw, Downfall, and anyone else I have ever had the opportunity to square off against."
"You're JUST Spencer Adams......"
"I'm JUST Claire Hawkins..... "
"Monday Night is JUST another moment in my budding career in a company that I fuckin' love."
"......."
"Quoth the Witch...."
"...."
"Forevermore."
Switch off the camera, Claire softly let out a disheartened sigh as she once more returned to her seat. The last few days had been both exhausting as much as they had been nerve-wracking. So much so that it forcibly brought unpleasant memories of the past up from the depths that she had repressed them into. So much so, that she had found herself questioning whether or not the sacrifices that she had made were going to ever pay off.
The truth was that, despite this new form, she found herself second-guessing whether or not her stubbornness was an asset against the constant disapproval of those that were legally deemed to be "Coworkers". Perhaps fearlessly throwing her face into the wall of such daunting disdain was never going to prove fruitful and she would forever be looked down upon and regarded as less than human in their eyes; disgraceful and disgusting.
"Here goes nothing."