Post by Muru on May 5, 2024 13:40:22 GMT -5
I walked out of Blast empty handed…
I guess the only person surprised by that is me. No one thought I could win, and they were right. Even my own flesh and blood thought I'd fail. It sucks.
I gave everything I had and it wasn't enough. That's the hardest part. What do you do when your best isn't good enough? At my age I'm not sure there's anything else I can do.
I'm at max level.
Muru doesn't belong in the main event picture.
I can't believe that. If I do I might as well hang it up and quit. After my failure, who would blame me?
No…that's not how my story ends. The Havoc Rumble is coming up. That gives me another chance.
Angelo, congrats to you man. I may not like how you do business, but I can't argue with the results. I'd still like to see what would happen if we got to go one on one.
Hopefully we'll find out sooner than later.
Blast wasn't a blast for Muru. It was a lowlight that makes a man rethink his choices. Not only did he lose his match, he might have lost the women he's been pursuing.
Ryan: I don't think it's cheating.
Muru has told his cousin about the old night stand he had recently.
Muru: Isn't it? We've been talking for over a month
Ryan: Talking isn't fucking. Plus she lives in Canada. What are you really expecting?
Muru: I wanted to find out what could be.
Ryan: You don't have to tell her.
Muru: I feel like I do.
Ryan: It will just ruin whatever you think you've got. What happened to the guy who just met a girl in every city and moved on?
Muru: He got older. The girls aren't lining up like they once were. Plus that wasn't going to make me happy.
Ryan: No use chasing happiness. Just take what you can get.
Muru: Sometimes I want more. I feel like I've missed out on a lot. I could have been married with kids.
Ryan: Then you wouldn't be you. Your life would have changed.
Muru: That might not have been so bad.
Ryan: If this is going to be one of those conversations, I'm going to need a drink.
TJ Alexander...
Blast wasn't a good night for either of us was it? I know what it's like to want to win gold and have my hand raised. It's disappointing when it doesn't happen. At least you can hold your head high knowing you didn't lose your match.
That honor belongs to your partner, Jaice Wilds.
That gives you an excuse, someone else to blame. I'm not as fortunate. If Odin or Teo had gotten pinned, I could boast that I deserve another shot. I could be crying out about how I got robbed. After all, I was supposed to have a one on one title match.
No amount of excuses help when you're the one looking up at the lights.
I spent this week deciding where do I go next. Sure the Havoc Rumble is coming up, but I can't wait until then. If I want to get back on track, it starts this week.
It starts with beating you TJ.
I know neither of us are going to be at our best. You're probably going to be a little worse for wear. It takes a lot out of you when you're getting your ass handed to you all around the arena.
I've been there and done that.
If I can get real with you for a minute, I want to let you in on a secret. In the right situation I wouldn't be opposed to a bit of a beating from two women. Just not in that situation, or those women.
Vespertine and Karlie Nash? Gross.
It doesn't matter how I feel going into our match. When the bell rings I go into battle mode. That means you're going to get the best version of Muru I can muster. I may not be at my best.
Against you, it will still be enough.
You've got a promising future kid. Anyone can see that. The thing is I've got something on my side you don't. It isn't the experience, which hasn't done me much good lately.
It's desperation.
What happens if I lose my third match in a row? How could anyone take me seriously? I know the locker room doesn't see me as anything as some old ass scrub who came back because he thought Action Wrestling was ripe for the picking.
That isn't true.
I wanted to prove myself against the best. It doesn't matter how long you've been doing this. You're only as good as the last man you beat.
Meaningful wins is something I'm lacking.
I have to beat you TJ. You might feel the same way. I promise you this. We're going to have a hell of a match. If everything goes well maybe we'll both walk out of the match with something.
Relevancy…
I can't go back to matches against never was wrestlers. It was a nice boost when I had something to fight for. Now that I've been labeled a failure, going back to matches like that could be the end.
You might as well put me out to pasture.
My age might give you an advantage TJ. When your music hits my eyes may fill up with tears. When Optimus Prime died that was the saddest thing I'd seen up to that point in my life. As an eight year old little Moo it was a tough day.
Then I got some new toys. Got to love nostalgia.
I want to be able to shake your hand and say let the best man win. I'm just not sure I can do that.
I have to be the best man.
You're just going to have to accept that TJ.
I guess the only person surprised by that is me. No one thought I could win, and they were right. Even my own flesh and blood thought I'd fail. It sucks.
I gave everything I had and it wasn't enough. That's the hardest part. What do you do when your best isn't good enough? At my age I'm not sure there's anything else I can do.
I'm at max level.
Muru doesn't belong in the main event picture.
I can't believe that. If I do I might as well hang it up and quit. After my failure, who would blame me?
No…that's not how my story ends. The Havoc Rumble is coming up. That gives me another chance.
Angelo, congrats to you man. I may not like how you do business, but I can't argue with the results. I'd still like to see what would happen if we got to go one on one.
Hopefully we'll find out sooner than later.
Blast wasn't a blast for Muru. It was a lowlight that makes a man rethink his choices. Not only did he lose his match, he might have lost the women he's been pursuing.
Ryan: I don't think it's cheating.
Muru has told his cousin about the old night stand he had recently.
Muru: Isn't it? We've been talking for over a month
Ryan: Talking isn't fucking. Plus she lives in Canada. What are you really expecting?
Muru: I wanted to find out what could be.
Ryan: You don't have to tell her.
Muru: I feel like I do.
Ryan: It will just ruin whatever you think you've got. What happened to the guy who just met a girl in every city and moved on?
Muru: He got older. The girls aren't lining up like they once were. Plus that wasn't going to make me happy.
Ryan: No use chasing happiness. Just take what you can get.
Muru: Sometimes I want more. I feel like I've missed out on a lot. I could have been married with kids.
Ryan: Then you wouldn't be you. Your life would have changed.
Muru: That might not have been so bad.
Ryan: If this is going to be one of those conversations, I'm going to need a drink.
TJ Alexander...
Blast wasn't a good night for either of us was it? I know what it's like to want to win gold and have my hand raised. It's disappointing when it doesn't happen. At least you can hold your head high knowing you didn't lose your match.
That honor belongs to your partner, Jaice Wilds.
That gives you an excuse, someone else to blame. I'm not as fortunate. If Odin or Teo had gotten pinned, I could boast that I deserve another shot. I could be crying out about how I got robbed. After all, I was supposed to have a one on one title match.
No amount of excuses help when you're the one looking up at the lights.
I spent this week deciding where do I go next. Sure the Havoc Rumble is coming up, but I can't wait until then. If I want to get back on track, it starts this week.
It starts with beating you TJ.
I know neither of us are going to be at our best. You're probably going to be a little worse for wear. It takes a lot out of you when you're getting your ass handed to you all around the arena.
I've been there and done that.
If I can get real with you for a minute, I want to let you in on a secret. In the right situation I wouldn't be opposed to a bit of a beating from two women. Just not in that situation, or those women.
Vespertine and Karlie Nash? Gross.
It doesn't matter how I feel going into our match. When the bell rings I go into battle mode. That means you're going to get the best version of Muru I can muster. I may not be at my best.
Against you, it will still be enough.
You've got a promising future kid. Anyone can see that. The thing is I've got something on my side you don't. It isn't the experience, which hasn't done me much good lately.
It's desperation.
What happens if I lose my third match in a row? How could anyone take me seriously? I know the locker room doesn't see me as anything as some old ass scrub who came back because he thought Action Wrestling was ripe for the picking.
That isn't true.
I wanted to prove myself against the best. It doesn't matter how long you've been doing this. You're only as good as the last man you beat.
Meaningful wins is something I'm lacking.
I have to beat you TJ. You might feel the same way. I promise you this. We're going to have a hell of a match. If everything goes well maybe we'll both walk out of the match with something.
Relevancy…
I can't go back to matches against never was wrestlers. It was a nice boost when I had something to fight for. Now that I've been labeled a failure, going back to matches like that could be the end.
You might as well put me out to pasture.
My age might give you an advantage TJ. When your music hits my eyes may fill up with tears. When Optimus Prime died that was the saddest thing I'd seen up to that point in my life. As an eight year old little Moo it was a tough day.
Then I got some new toys. Got to love nostalgia.
I want to be able to shake your hand and say let the best man win. I'm just not sure I can do that.
I have to be the best man.
You're just going to have to accept that TJ.