Post by Tatiana on Apr 7, 2024 6:52:00 GMT -5
Interlude I - Fade into Darkness
Road to HAVOC! THE TOURNAMENT WHERE LEGENDS ARE MADE AND HISTORY WR- -
Okay, you know what. I’m done with it | I’m over it | I’M SICK AND TIRED OF IT!
This whole playing-second fiddle bullshit is starting to wear on my already stretched-thin patience. FOR OVER TWO GOD DAMNED YEARS I’VE TOILED, I’VE SUFFERED INDIGNITY AFTER INDIGNITY FOR THIS FUCKING PLACE.
And where has it gotten me?
Second best | Runner Up | ALMOST there!
Am I supposed to be happy with that? Am I supposed to be flattered to come up second-best at EVERY event against whoever happens to be the lucky flavor of the month?
-sigh-
This somehow felt personal - like a persecution. And yet part of her knew it was at least somewhat of her own making. It was she, who was losing these finals. It was TJ taking the falls and coming up just short of reaching the apex once again.
Perhaps there was a little clock ticking away in her mind… Warning her that she has more time behind than in front. And though at 41, she had no plans on quitting any time soon… She knew her prime years were behind her, winning big matches against talent half her age would only get harder the deeper she waded into her forties.
Do you know how many federations are courting me right now? Do you know how many of my peers tell me EVERY-SINGLE-DAY that I’m too good to be ‘stuck’ here in AW? They tell me I’m just wasting my time - that this place doesn’t appreciate the talent I bring to the table. They ALL say it’s high time for me to get out of here and SAVE myself from a mundane existence being BURIED on a roster like some snot-nosed punk who hasn’t paid their dues for 25 fucking years.
And you know what I tell them all?
NO.
I’m the last vestige of respect this company has. After you’ve nearly run off every big star this federation has ever had, I’ve stuck it out. Despite the rich opportunities from several prominent federations - I’m still here. I’m STILL loyal to Action Wrestling.
And sometimes… I feel like Action Wrestling isn’t very loyal to me.
The squeaky wheel gets the grease and all…
Was this an AW problem | Or a Tatiana Jolee problem?
Havoc… Pfft… Yeah, I’ve been in this tournament before. And I’ve failed to win the thing… Just like every other one I’ve been involved in during my AW tenure.
The salt was real, folks…
I’m sure this year is expected to be much the same. Tatiana Jolee… The plucky little underdog will fight and scrape through this thing until she’s knocked out of it by Gerard Angelo, TJ Alexander, or whoever the fuck is the flavor of the week. And then that asshole will go on to fail to make good on it and the status quo will remain as solid as ever here on Monday Night Clash!
-eye roll-
There was much to be angry about… Wasted opportunity, the feeling of being underappreciated. Seeing her peers leave in droves only to find themselves in federations that not just appreciate them, but utilize them in a way befitting a huge star… All while she is here, drifting listlessly as the clock on her career ticks on.
On the other, I signed an exclusive contract to work for AW. I’m here at least until November and unless I see things change… Maybe it’ll be time to consider the path walked by so many of my peers.
I confess… There’s a chance I’ve over-valued myself… But maybe the federation will realize they could lose one of the last mega-stars left on the roster.
She was either a whiny Primadona | or an underappreciated renascence woman.
Depending on your point of view.
In any event… Monday Night Clash, HAVOC. I find myself in a triple threat vs Jody Madrox and Vespertine. One of you, I’ve defeated before and the other I am very interested in facing for the first time. It would be bullshit for me to blow smoke up your asses in some rah-rah promo about fighting and surviving blah blah blah….
I will instead leave you with this…
Talent is a fallacy - skill is a matter of fortune - and success is the whim of a man in a suit. Intent is the only thing that truly matters. - the rest is a gamble on fate.
I’m a woman who has played her final hand.
It’s do or die - and I’m starting to see that it’s better to do to death | than it is to die trying.