Post by Dionysus on Jun 11, 2023 1:58:59 GMT -5
Finding who I needed to be was not an easy road. I lived with a mission of self-sacrifice. One that I felt needed to have a definitive end to. An answer to a lifelong question. And at the end of that road...the answer I found was disappointing. I threw all my effort into this quest, and for what? Simply more doubt and more reason to try and push the obvious away. Looking back on it all now, I realize it was foolish. I allowed myself to take a step aside, putting my own ambitions behind me while I had this other goal to pursue. I ended up being in my own way when the time came. And despite my efforts, what ultimately did me in was my own selfish desire to try and shove my life in the face of a parent who simply was never going to be around. But as they say, hindsight is twenty-twenty. It is easy to look back at the past and have these sudden revelations on how stupid or naive you once were. I suspect that is why people cringe at the sight of their own "Its not a phase!" moment of their teenage years. However, it is much harder to see those failings of your past, acknowledge them...then build off of that failure toward new horizons. My journey has been a long one...but I have seen the kind of person I truly need to be. That journey will culminate at Evolution, where everything began for me. Which is why, for some reason, this upcoming match makes me feel like the old man at the young kids table. All looking to either make a name or continue building on the momentum they currently have...both for my opponents as well as my team. Joule, naturally, has made the mistake many others have done; underestimating just what I am capable of. Is it any wonder, therefore, that she should appear shocked when I made a tactical move to secure the victory? Even sharing it is irrelevant in this scenario; she seemed certain of victory and yet couldn't get the job done. Now watch; the next time we hear from her, it may be some excuse such as "well the ref clearly was new," or "they didn't know what they were doing." Any and every excuse in the book to show that the record books will have a win in both our columns. Take them where you can get them; Action Wrestling is a proving ground, and that was your first harsh lesson. Never expect that you are going to come out the victor. Always fight with everything on the line. I will give you some credit, though; it takes sheer audacity to say that competing at a global level is somehow "lesser than." But then again, that is to be expected from someone who is still wet behind the ears and needing an understanding of how this business works. The fact I can compete anywhere and still be successful while maintaining my career here is a testament to how far I can really go. And the fact that I have yet to obtain singles gold here is not a sign of me slowing down. It is a sign of me being long overdue. Jessie, meanwhile, has made a triumphant return...though I half expect by the time anyone hears this, she will have retreated once again. You really do need to have more confidence in yourself, Jessie. I get it; the women of Action Wrestling are a talented bunch, and you are certainly among them. However, your tendency to flee at the sign of trouble is a problem that can only be resolved by digging in and sticking around for the good fight. Or are you only going to allow being the first (official) Women's Championship to be your crowning achievement? As for Ellie...I imagine she will simply be focused on doing as much damage to Doc as she can. Understandable, considering recent history, not to mention their own upcoming Evolution match. Two of the hottest talents in recent months and already they are at each others' throats. Not a good sign for team cohesion. It is rare, though, to see someone who shows a lot of promise and strength also show signs of their own vulnerability. Or did you think that your vomiting episode was going to be swept under the rug? Word travels fast, and if you are getting sick after just being attacked...I wonder if you even have the stomach for the amount of hurt that will come in the future. But do not fret; showing weakness is not inherently bad. It means you are human, just like the rest of us. Normally I would feel more confident in a lead-up to Evolution, but with the randomness of this main event being put together as a showcase of what is to come, a match where we are all looking to leave our final impressions before "the big one," I cannot help but think this will end the way all these matches inevitably end; a giant clusterfuck with only one of us standing tall in the end, either holding the belt we currently have...or holding the one we are hoping to win. It is with this trepidation that I can only reasonably rely on myself to be able to get the job done. But its okay. Because while I cannot rely on my own team...there are others I know I can count on when I need them. Elysium is calling...and will be watching. |