Post by Dionysus on Mar 8, 2023 14:48:19 GMT -5
Hey guys, I’ve had a lot on my mind and just wanted to give you an update on what’s been going on with me. Before I go too far into this, I want to start off by saying overall I am still doing okay, just that my headspace has been in a weird place for the last few months. I’m also not planning on taking a break from here, though you might see me less frequently. So all that aside, here’s what’s been going on.
I don’t think I’ve mentioned this openly to everyone, but I work for Activision as a QA tester. Yes, that Activision. No, I’m not going to tell you anything about Call of Duty stuff. I enjoy the work that I’m doing, but in recent months they made a few changes to how they gauge who is doing their work and who isn’t. Normally this isn’t a problem for me; I’m on a different kind of testing team where those kinds of rules don’t really apply, but they also started cracking down on us harder. As a result, I’ve been dealing with a lot of added stress to make sure I’m performing even the bare minimum each day. There’s also a lot of little stresses that are piling up (my dog having some problems with his skin, dealing with taxes and house maintenance, etc.) that, as a result, have made my usual seasonal depression even worse than normal. I thought I had a handle on being able to cope with it all, but I ended up self-medicating in a bad way. It also led me to act like a complete asshole during CruiserHavoc.
I’m rebounding from that and feel like I’m getting better, but I just wanted to say that I appreciate every single one of you. Whether you’re new or old, whether you like me or not, I still enjoy coming here and being able to write with you all. I’m sorry if anything I have said or done the past few months has bothered anyone, and if it did, feel free to reach out to me in DMs and we can talk it out. I realized just how closed off I’ve been, and I want to open up more.
I want to shoutout Torture and Downfall in particular, since they’re usually putting up with my nonsense. I don’t think I would be around here if they weren’t willing to at least hear me out on some things. I also want to thank Lissie for also taking the time to help me out.
That said, my DMs are open if anyone ever needs someone to talk to. Trust me, you won’t be a bother.
Thanks for hearing me out. Now lets get back to writing like the buncha nerds we are.
I don’t think I’ve mentioned this openly to everyone, but I work for Activision as a QA tester. Yes, that Activision. No, I’m not going to tell you anything about Call of Duty stuff. I enjoy the work that I’m doing, but in recent months they made a few changes to how they gauge who is doing their work and who isn’t. Normally this isn’t a problem for me; I’m on a different kind of testing team where those kinds of rules don’t really apply, but they also started cracking down on us harder. As a result, I’ve been dealing with a lot of added stress to make sure I’m performing even the bare minimum each day. There’s also a lot of little stresses that are piling up (my dog having some problems with his skin, dealing with taxes and house maintenance, etc.) that, as a result, have made my usual seasonal depression even worse than normal. I thought I had a handle on being able to cope with it all, but I ended up self-medicating in a bad way. It also led me to act like a complete asshole during CruiserHavoc.
I’m rebounding from that and feel like I’m getting better, but I just wanted to say that I appreciate every single one of you. Whether you’re new or old, whether you like me or not, I still enjoy coming here and being able to write with you all. I’m sorry if anything I have said or done the past few months has bothered anyone, and if it did, feel free to reach out to me in DMs and we can talk it out. I realized just how closed off I’ve been, and I want to open up more.
I want to shoutout Torture and Downfall in particular, since they’re usually putting up with my nonsense. I don’t think I would be around here if they weren’t willing to at least hear me out on some things. I also want to thank Lissie for also taking the time to help me out.
That said, my DMs are open if anyone ever needs someone to talk to. Trust me, you won’t be a bother.
Thanks for hearing me out. Now lets get back to writing like the buncha nerds we are.