Post by Ellie Austin on May 28, 2023 13:21:23 GMT -5
A few days have past since Havoc and while I did not win there is part of me that still believes this is the start of something bigger. Especially that I’ve now moved on from the past. Especially because Rylee is going forever. All that remains is a future for Dawsen and I.
Once he’s done grieving of course.
I just wish that process could go a little faster. I’ve sat through all of the nights filled with crying so far. I’ve sat through the anger streaks that pop up. I’ve sat through it all. I just want him to be over her back to me.
My thoughts are interrupted by the sound of my phone ringing. I look down at the caller ID and I see that out Dawsen.
Hey babe! What’s up?
I hear a sigh on the other end.
Don’t call me babe. It’s inappropriate!
I call everyone babe!
No you don’t. Don’t play that game with me.
Ok fine. Chill!
I can’t chill! It’s been over a month. They haven’t been able to find her. I can’t help but feel the worst has happened.
I smile. He has no idea.
Don’t think that way! You’ve got to have faith.
No you don’t. You don’t need faith. You need me.
I’m losing faith. All I think about is she’s dead in a ditch somewhere.
Or she’s wherever my uncle buried her.
No! She’s not! I promise.
I smile knowing that I’m technically not lying.
Ok but there’s something bothering me.
What?
Why are you helping me? You hate her.
But I care about you.
But you know we’re over.
Don’t say that.
I know! That doesn’t mean I don’t care about you! We can be friends.
I think you are just saying that.
No I’m not.
Yes you are. You don’t want to be my friend and honestly, I don’t want to be your friend either.
My eyes narrow.
What?
I don’t want to be your friend.
What the fuck?
I don’t know what to say. Is he for real?
What do you mean?
I mean, if she’s not coming back then I need to move on. I need to move on with my whole life. I need to start over.
What are you talking about?
I’m talking about starting a new life. One without all of this bullshit. One where it’s just me starting a new.
What are you saying?
I’m saying I’m leaving. I don’t know where I’m going to go but I’m gonna leave. Don’t try to talk me out of it. It won’t work.
I can’t believe you’re doing this right now.
I can’t believe I didn’t do it sooner. That’s partially why I didn’t go to Havoc. I knew I had to get out. I’m sorry.
Before I can say anything else he hangs up the phone. I looked down at it and still can’t believe what just happened.
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Evolution is coming. And even though I had a good showing at Havoc, I’m still floating in the wind with my future plans. I’ve had my moments where I’ve shown that I belong here. I’ve also had moments where I scratch my head and wonder what happens. But the fact of the matter is, it’s time to take that next step.
That step is to either win the CBS Championship or win back the Television Title at Evolution. No some might think that going after the Television Title one more time would be a step back. I don’t think so! I think it’s a grand opportunity.
An opportunity that I welcome. You see nobody has beaten The Sitcom since he took that title off of my shoulder. I’d like to return the favor and take it back from him. I think it would be fun!
Granted, winning the CBS Championship would also be fun. It would be nice to continue to add these accolades to my career. I have no problem doing just that.
But in order to get there, I have to win one more match. I have to get along with a partner that I’ve never teamed with. I’ve got to be two people that I’ve never faced. But yet I can’t look at it like that. I have to look at it like the opportunity that it is. A challenge.
And if anybody’s learned anything about me over the past few months, it’s that I love a challenge. I don’t back down. I don’t give up. And I’m going to earn my way to Evolution!
Al Nally and Robby Big Dick don’t know what they’re getting into. This match is going to come down to who wants it more and that is definitely me and I’d like to think it’s Jimmy “Big Tyme” Jackson as well.
I know the respective champions are watching and I just have to say one thing. Be afraid. Be very afraid. I’m coming for one of you! Evolution will be my next step.
See you on Monday! Love ya!
Once he’s done grieving of course.
I just wish that process could go a little faster. I’ve sat through all of the nights filled with crying so far. I’ve sat through the anger streaks that pop up. I’ve sat through it all. I just want him to be over her back to me.
My thoughts are interrupted by the sound of my phone ringing. I look down at the caller ID and I see that out Dawsen.
Hey babe! What’s up?
I hear a sigh on the other end.
Don’t call me babe. It’s inappropriate!
I call everyone babe!
No you don’t. Don’t play that game with me.
Ok fine. Chill!
I can’t chill! It’s been over a month. They haven’t been able to find her. I can’t help but feel the worst has happened.
I smile. He has no idea.
Don’t think that way! You’ve got to have faith.
No you don’t. You don’t need faith. You need me.
I’m losing faith. All I think about is she’s dead in a ditch somewhere.
Or she’s wherever my uncle buried her.
No! She’s not! I promise.
I smile knowing that I’m technically not lying.
Ok but there’s something bothering me.
What?
Why are you helping me? You hate her.
But I care about you.
But you know we’re over.
Don’t say that.
I know! That doesn’t mean I don’t care about you! We can be friends.
I think you are just saying that.
No I’m not.
Yes you are. You don’t want to be my friend and honestly, I don’t want to be your friend either.
My eyes narrow.
What?
I don’t want to be your friend.
What the fuck?
I don’t know what to say. Is he for real?
What do you mean?
I mean, if she’s not coming back then I need to move on. I need to move on with my whole life. I need to start over.
What are you talking about?
I’m talking about starting a new life. One without all of this bullshit. One where it’s just me starting a new.
What are you saying?
I’m saying I’m leaving. I don’t know where I’m going to go but I’m gonna leave. Don’t try to talk me out of it. It won’t work.
I can’t believe you’re doing this right now.
I can’t believe I didn’t do it sooner. That’s partially why I didn’t go to Havoc. I knew I had to get out. I’m sorry.
Before I can say anything else he hangs up the phone. I looked down at it and still can’t believe what just happened.
////
Evolution is coming. And even though I had a good showing at Havoc, I’m still floating in the wind with my future plans. I’ve had my moments where I’ve shown that I belong here. I’ve also had moments where I scratch my head and wonder what happens. But the fact of the matter is, it’s time to take that next step.
That step is to either win the CBS Championship or win back the Television Title at Evolution. No some might think that going after the Television Title one more time would be a step back. I don’t think so! I think it’s a grand opportunity.
An opportunity that I welcome. You see nobody has beaten The Sitcom since he took that title off of my shoulder. I’d like to return the favor and take it back from him. I think it would be fun!
Granted, winning the CBS Championship would also be fun. It would be nice to continue to add these accolades to my career. I have no problem doing just that.
But in order to get there, I have to win one more match. I have to get along with a partner that I’ve never teamed with. I’ve got to be two people that I’ve never faced. But yet I can’t look at it like that. I have to look at it like the opportunity that it is. A challenge.
And if anybody’s learned anything about me over the past few months, it’s that I love a challenge. I don’t back down. I don’t give up. And I’m going to earn my way to Evolution!
Al Nally and Robby Big Dick don’t know what they’re getting into. This match is going to come down to who wants it more and that is definitely me and I’d like to think it’s Jimmy “Big Tyme” Jackson as well.
I know the respective champions are watching and I just have to say one thing. Be afraid. Be very afraid. I’m coming for one of you! Evolution will be my next step.
See you on Monday! Love ya!