Post by Kyle Kemp on Sept 4, 2022 11:57:09 GMT -5
The stabbing of pain continue to shoot through my lower back as I lay on the floor outside of the ring. I try to get up as I see Jill Park reach for the briefcase but my body won’t respond. I can’t feel anything but pain. I try to fight through it but for the first time in a long time I feel my will to get up leave my body. The weight of the past year just falls on top of me. I lay back down and just watch as she pulls down the briefcase. I close my eyes and can feel sadness rush through my body.
What just happened? Wasn’t this supposed to be my redemption? Wasn’t this where things started going right for me again?
I take a second to compose myself and open my eyes. I ignore everything else happening in the ring. I can see it out of my peripherals but I just don’t care. I start to trudge towards the backstage area, wondering what’s next for me.
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This has nothing to do with Marcus Collins. It has everything to do with me. I don’t say that as a conceited statement. I don’t say that as a way to mock Collins. I say that because it is the truth.
Sure Collins has had an ok start to his career and this is a great opportunity for him but it’s an even greater opportunity for me. Why? Because it is a chance for me to get back on my feet and show everyone I’m not washed up.
I’ve heard the rumblings. I’ve heard the people that have said that I’m not the same guy since I came back. I understand that sentiment and while some would say it’s not true, I am man enough to admit I have not performed up to my standard. I lost at Uprising. I lost to Downfall in the main event of Clash a few weeks ago. I lost at Evolution. Hell the only success I’ve had is beating up on Elijah Martin and let’s admit that it’s not really hard to do that.
The fact of the matter is that some people think I’ve lost my edge. They think I’m on the downward trajectory of my career. Marcus Collins is a test from upper management to see if I’m doing just that.
A test that I plan on acing.
I’m not washed up. I’m not done! I’m only getting started and Marcus Collins is just going to be an example I make that this is still Kyle Kemp’s time!
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That question of what’s next for me is all I’ve thought about for a few days. For the first time in a long time I had my confidence completely shaken which is in part why I’m back here.
So tell me Kyle, what happened out there?
I don’t know.
I take a deep breath and sigh.
I thought I had it all lined up. I thought I had played all the right angles. My strategy seemed sound and it was right there. Then I let Dandy do me dirty one more time.
I did see that. I have to say, I’m surprised you even raised your fist with as much as you’ve told me you want to leave the past behind.
I do want to leave the past behind!
But in that moment instead of prioritizing the briefcase you put making up with CJ and Dandy first. Why is that?
I put winning first. They were going to let me win until I realized I’d been tricked.
No, you put making things right with your friends. Your brothers!
Don’t call them that!
But you want them to be.
No I don’t!
Face it Kyle! Right now you want to be loved more than you want to win!
Bullshit!
That’s why you were so sad when the match ended. It wasn’t because you didn’t win. It’s because two guys you wish still wanted to hang out with you showed that they don’t feel the same way. Somewhere deep down you know you burned the bridges and somewhere deep down you know you want to make things right.
I want to win! I want to be better than everyone else!
And I think you finding people who want to be your friend is how you are going to do it. You need a support system. More than ever before.
No I don’t and right now I don’t need you.
I get up and storm out before Emily can say another word. I storm down the hallway of her office and make a beeline to the elevator. I can’t believe her! How dare she question his desire to win!
Friends. Who needs them? Those two aren’t my friends. They never were.
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While this may have nothing to do with Marcus Collins he still has his faults. He still has weaknesses that are glaring. Many of you expect me to come on here and compare him to people I’ve matched up to in the past or to mock him about being a rookie. I don’t need to do that. I’ve learned enough about him to not need to do that.
You see you’re an easy book to read Marcus. You play up this wandering soul persona but yet you talk in a tone that’s pompous and pretentious. You try not to look like the smartest guy in the room with your cut off band shirts and the earthy smell that radiates off your body but the second you open your mouth we all see what you’re all about.
And that’s what makes you so easy to dislike.
You see, people don’t like a know it all. They don’t like a prick. Just like at how you treated Addy and Alexandra Calaway. You have to call them Lexi and Adelaide to demean them. Why? Because it makes you feel better. Mistreating them makes you able to fill that truck sized hole in your heart from being abandoned by your mommy.
On top of that you tell these stories about black bears, the Cherokee nation or quoting Shakespeare that you think make you sound intelligent but it just reminds us that you're a fraud. Your entire appearance would lead someone to believe your chill and someone they could have a conversation with but the truth is that you’re just a complete douche hiding behind that appearance.
And that’s what makes you so easy to dislike. People hate know it alls but what they hate even more is when someone tries to disguise themselves as someone who isn’t but turns out to be one. It’s a betrayal to some. To others it’s just a trigger that makes them want to kick your ass.
I’m one of the others. I want to kick your ass.
Now I know you’re going tell me in that condescending tone of yours that I’m a know it all and an asshole too. That I can’t take this line with you because we are one and the same. We aren’t. From day one I’ve been an asshole and I’ve let every single person know it. Hell if you were here right now I would walk straight up to you and tell you to your face.
You wouldn’t do the same. You would try to talk me in circles and prove your “superior intellect.”
What makes it even worse is that you have another character trait that pisses me off. You’re the guy that tries to downplay championships so you can act like it’s not a big deal when you don’t have one.
Your comment about how the title is only 8 extra pounds in your luggage and some extra zeros on your paycheck is a complete slap in the face to the veterans that have built up those titles, specifically me. Being a champion in Action Wrestling is an honor and as a Grand Slam Champion I’ve had time to make each title matter more.
Just look at the Television Title. So many people have had long runs out have been able to bring the spotlight to that title. I held that title for six weeks and had multiple defenses that were considered great matches. Hell my last night with the title Graham Baker and I tore the house down as the main event on Clash!
The Television Title has been a springboard for many guys when they start in the company. Downfall and Ash Blake are just two of the names that come to mind. However there are countless other names who had a cup of coffee with the table, realized they couldn’t hack it here and they left.
I mean no one really remembers Eavan Maloney or Carnivore. I have a sneaky feeling no one is going to remember Marcus Collins either. Why? Because you knew you weren’t good enough before you even set foot in that ring to defend that title.
Right away you started talking about how you felt like an afterthought and how everyone thought you were a fluke and played off that you didn’t care because you’re used to being unwanted. Well with that shit attitude I can tell you this is going to be like the rest of your life. No one is going to want you here.
The truth is you acted like the title didn’t mean anything to you because you were in over your head. You didn’t earn that title and Calaway was en route to another title defense until that little distraction let you win with a roll up. You looked so shocked when the referee handed you the belt. I’m pretty sure the ridiculous face you made trended on social media for a few days.
And the truth is you knew you were going to lose that title before you even stepped in the ring.
Let’s face it Marcus. The talent pool here isn’t what you’re used to. This isn’t a rag tag group of foster children that you’re used to beating up at the orphanage or some underprivileged adults at a soup kitchen.
This is Action Wrestling! This is the elite and you got a first hand showing of that at Uprising. You may believe this is a chance for you to show that you belong here but we both know it’s an easy way out. An easy way for you to get beat by me and then blame your misfortune on management favoring me as you walk out and go on a vision quest with the Cherokee.
So let me let you help you take the easy way out. Let me do what I do best and that’s kick ass. Just savor the last couple days because I’m going to tell you what you already know. I’m Kyle Kemp and this is Action Wrestling and we’re better than you!
