Post by Roger Payton Jr on Sept 29, 2019 20:00:57 GMT -5
A ping. A notification on his phone.
Alyssa Payton
Are you coming home for our birthday? Xx
Are you coming home for our birthday? Xx
Roger Payton Jr’s head was pounding from the night before, his jaw was slack and spasticated from his first ever night caught in the grasping hands of cocaine dreams. He swiped left on the message - clearing it from his notification bar. A flush from the bathroom. A slinky small latina figure. Arms wrapped around his shoulders. A breathy whisper in his ear.
Cecilia: Good afternoon, King.
A kiss and a nibble.
Roger: Yeah. I feel...uhhh...not great.
That was an understatement. Roger had found himself drinking heavier and indulging more in the past month than in his entire twenty-two year existence so far. It was catching up to him like a bullet to the brain. His head throbbed as he turned to look at the woman who almost every bit of his entity was screaming mistake but quickly got overruled by the rush of blood to his manhood.
Cecilia: That’s a shame. God you’re such a fuckin’ lightweight. I thought you were going to be a little more...robust.
She traced a finger down his chest.
Cecilia: You’re like a paper tiger aren’t you Roger? It’s so fucking cute. I could just eat you up.
It took Roger a moment to register that words were even falling out of that beautiful mouth, when it did - he shrugged her off him and locked eyes with her.
Roger: What does that mean?
Cecilia: What?
Roger: Paper tiger, like what, I’m a pussy or something - what?
Cecilia: Oh, are you getting mad?
She hopped into a cross legged sitting position staring intently into his eyes, a wide smile crossing her face.
Cecilia: Please get mad. Paper tiger…
A bite of her lip.
Cecilia:..fucking pussy.
For a split second Roger thought about grabbing the woman by her hair and smashing her into the wall. He took a breath. He didn’t want to give her the pleasure.
Roger: That’s not going to work on me.
Cecilia’s brow furrowed and a pout replaced the smile.
Cecilia: It worked last night.
Roger: Yeah, well...that was last night. This morning I’m-
Cecilia: Afternoon. It’s half-past one.
Roger: Oh shit, I was supposed to get a promo to the network by two.
Cecilia: ...and?
Roger: ...and you should care about me retaining my job in the company and getting paid my appearance fee.
Cecilia: Why would I care about that? I’d prefer a foot rub than have to watch you talk about Ryan Elias ad nauseum for fifteen minutes.
Roger: What’s wrong with Ryan Elias?
Cecilia: Exactly. What the fuck is wrong with Ryan Elias? He’s the most boring dick-head on the entire roster. His single claim to fame is sticking his dick inside the festering syphilitic snatch of that twat Lissie. That’s it.
Roger: Glass houses. You’re only getting fame because of me sticki-
Cecilia: Bitch I have two wins over you, how many do you have over me?
Roger: …
Cecilia: Can I finish?
Roger: Is this where I say something like. YASSS QUEEEN? SLAY GURL?
She kisses him.
Cecilia: You’re learning. Actually....no. Let’s do this properly. Stand up.
CC dives to her side of the bed and rummages on the floor for the charging phone, she quickly retrieves it and begins swiping.
YouTube.
“Stand up.”
CC Loyal.
“Seriously Roger, I’m about to start broadcasting. Unless you want everyone else in the world to see your dick now then it’s best to actually throw some pants on and stand the fuck up.”
Broadcast Now.
A semi-naked Roger Payton Jr runs a hand through his messy sandy blonde hair before he finishes adjusting his jeans, a sheepish grin crosses his face.
“Uhhh….hi. Welcome! You might be wondering why I am broadcasting this from the CC Loyal YouTube account and well uhh…”
He seems to look behind the camera for a moment, the camera unfocuses with the remonstrations of the person holding it before re-focusing on the former Television Champion.
“It just so happens that I am using her old phone that she dropped in one of our contests-”
A faint ‘NO YOU IDIOT’ is heard by those with high audio fidelity true audiophile headphones.
“Anyway! I ain’t here to talk about the bizarre and wacky circumstances behind me being able to record this promo in this way. I mean shucks, that would be a promo in its own right. Nah. Instead I’m here to address one thing, more apropos - one person only. Ryan Elias.”
Payton grabs a previously discarded tee-shirt, grey and plain - from the floor. He slips it over his head and takes a moment adjusting it before speaking once more.
“Let’s not get this match twisted Ryan. You are a better position heading into this match than I. You’ve beaten the better competition, you’ve got the bigger names on resume, you’re more likely to get into the Wrestler of the Year tournament, you’re more likely to main event and hit the top of the card than I. None of these can even really be called opinion at this point, this is a fact. The whole world who has ever seen you fight knows just how good you are. You’re phenomenal, you’re exceptional, you’re nigh on...perfect. Me? I am anything but. I lose one for every two I win, I hop from week to week just taking on whatever challenge and trying my damndest to overcome it. If I manage it, great - if I don’t, oh well. You though...you take this personally.
I used to, at the start. First couple of weeks man that was rough. Losing to you? It made me feel like I had been introduced to a whole world I didn’t know existed. Like a white belt getting told to roll with Rickson, y’know - that world. Man I didn’t know what I was doing, I was point fighting while you were fighting for your life. I was a man possessed. No one, no one beats Roger Payton Jr. I wanted you. I needed you. I had to beat you Ryan.
So...I beat you. That’s not a brag, that’s not me being obtuse or trying to come up with some lesson for you to learn from. Nah. That’s just me telling you that when I want something - I get it.
You’re not the same Ryan Elias, but I damn sure ain’t the same Roger Payton neither.
This match right now is a crossroads for you and I. It’s funny, we tend to meet at these points of our careers, two parallel perpendicular fate lines. We are going to be the old soldiers sat around the table at the bar talking about ‘that time when’ in our careers soon enough. See the thing Ryan - is the world is yours already. You’re going to get the opportunities, the promotion and the shots. Me? This is my one shot to step up to the next level. You might see me as some kinda golden boy but that ain’t the truth, it’s completely the opposite. I have to work ten times harder than you for one tenth of the reward. Why? Talent.
As knitted together we are in our careers, the one thing that separates us the most is the most damning and decisive element: talent. Greatness is expected of me, demanded of me. Week after week I have to step in the ring and showcase a level matched by only a handful of people who already have their names pencilled into the Action Wrestling Hall of Fame. This is what my amateur record and my promotional machine demands of me. I’m already expected to be World Champion someday - imagine that cross on your shoulders Ryan, do you think you could bear the weight?
You get to begin your assault on the meat of the federation, walking through the Hollywood Elite and taking star after star. It doesn’t matter which one they give you, you reduce them to ash in your wake. As you destroy ever star on their boulevard you are carving the name ‘Ryan Elias’ on every single one with your very force of will. It’s establishing you as a star and showing that you belong in the upper echelon of Action Wrestling. Do you want to know why we aren’t seeing Roger Payton Jr challenging Ryan Lockhart for the Television Title? Why we aren’t seeing Leviathan squaring off in a #WrestleSeason spectacular with Roger Payton Jr? Well, because...you know.
Do you know? Thing is here, I think everyone else but Ryan Elias understands the situation he is in right now. The same situation he is every time he steps in the ring with me. This match is great in concept. Two rising superstars fighting for the next big shot at the next big champion. You are in your own personal Kobayashi Maru. This is an unwinnable match for you. You can’t beat me. Not any more. Not ever again. You had your one lone moment in the sun, the moment you can look back on at the end of your career and talk to your grandkids about. You keep this up though Ryan, you keep on being in these matches with me and it will start becoming as much of a caricature as your personality has evolved into.
Back when you were fun, you were breaking eggs and throwing darts - unintentionally hilarious. That was your schtick. You could have rolled with it, the man who is so inept at perfection he picks the most ridiculous things in the world to claim being the best in the world at. Instead? What we have now isn’t the Ryan Elias I know; you’ve become a thematic joke of a person. You go from match to match trying to comically mispronounce your opponents names and then label them with one of the seven sins....
...great.
What even is this?! Get destroying some eggs again for gods sake man. What’s my sin Ryan huh? Lust? Pride? Gree-
How about ALL OF THEM. Guess what, I’m a human being. We have desires, we have flaws, we commit sins - it’s about how we process and deal with them that makes us who we are. So you can slice me anyway you want Ryan and see what you find; hey look at that you find pieces of me in all three dimensions. I’d do the same to you but that would be a quick search in the first dimension wouldn’t it?
That’s just it right there. That’s what separates us, you’re a single one track minded throwback wrestler from ten years ago when your wit, humour and incisiveness was actually considered elite. Now? You’re a toddler with burst water wings trying to keep afloat in the Mariana Trench, nothing you do or say is even considered newsworthy. You ain’t hitting the headlines on ESPN for your conquering athletically, you’re all across TMZ for your out of ring conquests. It’s ridiculous. You’re ridiculous.
This isn’t a match for you, I know you probably don’t understand it at this point. This match is a gauntlet to me. Do you want to be Roger Payton Jr one off, one shot, one hit, one divison wonder? Or do you want to be Roger Payton Jr - best professional wrestler we have ever seen?
If it’s the former, this match is a ‘thank you and good night’
If it’s the latter, this match is a ‘where is the tape for that rocket ship on this kids back?’
That’s what you are across the ring from me for. This match is for me to lay out my intentions when it pertains to the rest of Action Wrestling. Let me tell you right now Ryan, you don’t have to wait until we step through the ropes to find out which one it is: it’s the latter. It’s every bit the latter. You are my collateral damage for the next stage in my career.”
Roger takes a breath.
“Walter.
We haven’t crossed paths yet and-”
Roger flicks his hair to one side and a smile begins to creep across his face.
“-and I’m saving it for when I’m stepping in the ring with you. Make no mistake, get preparing already, because I AM going to be stepping in the ring with you. Get shining your belt, because my god Walter...I’m coming for everything you have.”
As the feed cut, it was at that very point in time Roger Payton Jr’s life changed. He didn’t realise it, not yet - why would he? Somewhere, a pair of eyes watched this broadcast. They studied every moment, every muscular twitch of emotion, every change in pitch of voice. The bile grew deeper, the urge grew stronger and the smile grew wider.
Somewhere, a voice glowed in joyous agreement.
‘So am I’.
The next day.
Roger Payton
hey, how goes shit today?
Alyssa Payton
Oh it finally speaks! It’s only taken you like a week to respond - and you didn’t even answer my question.
Roger Payton
Okay jeez, I’ll be there okay it’s not like i’m actively avoiding talking to you or anything. Its not like i wouldn’t be home for our birthday
Alyssa Payton
You didn’t even have the courtesy to leave me on read, you saw I messaged you and you didn’t even care enough about the contents of the message to read it and ignore it. You’re only responding to this because you’re drunk and feel guilty.
Roger Payton
nope
Alyssa Payton
?
Roger Payton
I don’t feel guilty lmao
Alyssa Payton
lmao? Oh go you. That college education is paying off.
Roger Payton
is that su[posed to be upsetting me? LOL i’ve made more money since finishing college than you will in your first ten years miss graduated with honors
Alyssa Payton
Why do you do this?
Roger Payton
whjat?
Alyssa Payton
The ‘act like an entitled prick act’ - is it even an act anymore Roger? I get it, you’re a big shot now, you’re exactly what Mom and Dad always told you that you were. Go you. I hate that you’ve always had everything handed to you on a silver platter. I’ve had to fight and claw for everything I’ve ever had. I’ve always been ‘Roger’s sister’ do you even understand? You’re probably going to respond to this in a week because the subject matter makes you feel like the emotional retard that you are.
Alyssa Payton
Alyssa Payton removed a message.
Alyssa Payton
Alyssa Payton removed a message.
Roger Payton
wow are we actually arguing over facebook now? what next? your going to post on your wall saying ‘You can choose your friends but not your family’ or ‘Fuming, I guess sometimes you really know who the ones who love you are!’ and respond to ‘u okay darling’ with ‘pm me’
Roger Payton
get over yourself and dont be a bitch anr why are you removing messages? its not like your going to upset me haha
Alyssa Payton
I don’t want to upset you Roger.
Alyssa Payton
This is the difference between us. It’s like whenever you get upset about something you feel the need to go out and just stab the hearts of people close to you over and over again just so in your mind you get some I dunno - sick satisfaction out of knowing others feel bad too. I’m not going to do that but congratulations okay I feel pretty fucking bad right now.
Alyssa Payton
You’re a prick. You’re nothing like this in person, at least never the Roger that I’ve spent my whole life with. You fuck off for six months and suddenly what, you can start being who you really are? Is that the truth? Or are you just acting out because no one knows who you are and no one knows the wonderful brother I’ve spent my whole life admiring? Fuck you Roger. Maybe when you actually decide who you are, the people who loved who you were will already be gone.
Roger Payton
fuck
Roger Payton
I’m sorry. I don’t mean to upset you honestly, I’m a shit brother to you I know. Don’t you dare call me wonderful, wonderful doesn’t treat you like a convenient pacifier everytime he feels low only to throw you away whenever temporary urge satisfaction comes along. I fucking love you ya silly bitch.
Roger Payton
You’re doing awesome at your job btw
Roger Payton
damn marshawn cries for the pack right now lol
Roger Payton
How’s it going this morning?
Roger Payton
Alyssa?
Roger Payton
Alyssa???
hey, how goes shit today?
Alyssa Payton
Oh it finally speaks! It’s only taken you like a week to respond - and you didn’t even answer my question.
Roger Payton
Okay jeez, I’ll be there okay it’s not like i’m actively avoiding talking to you or anything. Its not like i wouldn’t be home for our birthday
Alyssa Payton
You didn’t even have the courtesy to leave me on read, you saw I messaged you and you didn’t even care enough about the contents of the message to read it and ignore it. You’re only responding to this because you’re drunk and feel guilty.
Roger Payton
nope
Alyssa Payton
?
Roger Payton
I don’t feel guilty lmao
Alyssa Payton
lmao? Oh go you. That college education is paying off.
Roger Payton
is that su[posed to be upsetting me? LOL i’ve made more money since finishing college than you will in your first ten years miss graduated with honors
Alyssa Payton
Why do you do this?
Roger Payton
whjat?
Alyssa Payton
The ‘act like an entitled prick act’ - is it even an act anymore Roger? I get it, you’re a big shot now, you’re exactly what Mom and Dad always told you that you were. Go you. I hate that you’ve always had everything handed to you on a silver platter. I’ve had to fight and claw for everything I’ve ever had. I’ve always been ‘Roger’s sister’ do you even understand? You’re probably going to respond to this in a week because the subject matter makes you feel like the emotional retard that you are.
Alyssa Payton
Alyssa Payton removed a message.
Alyssa Payton
Alyssa Payton removed a message.
Roger Payton
wow are we actually arguing over facebook now? what next? your going to post on your wall saying ‘You can choose your friends but not your family’ or ‘Fuming, I guess sometimes you really know who the ones who love you are!’ and respond to ‘u okay darling’ with ‘pm me’
Roger Payton
get over yourself and dont be a bitch anr why are you removing messages? its not like your going to upset me haha
Alyssa Payton
I don’t want to upset you Roger.
Alyssa Payton
This is the difference between us. It’s like whenever you get upset about something you feel the need to go out and just stab the hearts of people close to you over and over again just so in your mind you get some I dunno - sick satisfaction out of knowing others feel bad too. I’m not going to do that but congratulations okay I feel pretty fucking bad right now.
Alyssa Payton
You’re a prick. You’re nothing like this in person, at least never the Roger that I’ve spent my whole life with. You fuck off for six months and suddenly what, you can start being who you really are? Is that the truth? Or are you just acting out because no one knows who you are and no one knows the wonderful brother I’ve spent my whole life admiring? Fuck you Roger. Maybe when you actually decide who you are, the people who loved who you were will already be gone.
Roger Payton
fuck
Roger Payton
I’m sorry. I don’t mean to upset you honestly, I’m a shit brother to you I know. Don’t you dare call me wonderful, wonderful doesn’t treat you like a convenient pacifier everytime he feels low only to throw you away whenever temporary urge satisfaction comes along. I fucking love you ya silly bitch.
Roger Payton
You’re doing awesome at your job btw
Roger Payton
damn marshawn cries for the pack right now lol
Roger Payton
How’s it going this morning?
Roger Payton
Alyssa?
Roger Payton
Alyssa???